I think I just failed an interview with ABC bank today. I feel lousy. I couldnt convince the interviewers I wanted the job. I know it, cos when they asked me why the banking industry and why ABC, my prepared answer came out flat. Unconvincing. And I was too reserved, I let the interviewer talk more than me... I just couldn't come out of my inhibitions and shell.
Has it been that long since I last went for an interview? I thought I had prepared relatively well. And I slept real early the night before! Sigh.
I am feeling frustrated, down. Could it be a blessing in disguise? Maybe God is just saying that the job isn't suitable for me after all. Maybe I will find it when I can click with the interviewer. When the "feel-good" feeling comes.
Anyway I had rushed from work to change into a suit in a retail centre toilet before rushing to the bank centre as I was running out of time with a delayed meeting. Had to wait for about 20 minutes and then I saw my reporter friend coming out of the interview room! What a small world. We pretended not to know each other. Then I was half disappointed already as he's a journalist and to go for an interview after him is like... I will just pale in comparison I guess
I feel lost... but I need to change job. Yup, but not I want. :) Sigh... Anyway I am super exhausted after the interview hhahaha...
Friday, August 20, 2010
Thursday, August 19, 2010
A boring day in August before Friday
Wishing I could be at home, relaxing...
Watching HK TVB drama series...
Cleaning the house...
Going for a swim or to the gym...
So bored in office, tons of work yet not motivated to do it anyway. Haha. Anything's more exciting than work. and working with a bunch of....
Anyway I am so irritated today. Been working on a press release since last week and today I have been told that it's CANCELLED!! Goodness.. I already highlighted that management should be giving a clear directive but they debate till so long.... Give up!
Watching HK TVB drama series...
Cleaning the house...
Going for a swim or to the gym...
So bored in office, tons of work yet not motivated to do it anyway. Haha. Anything's more exciting than work. and working with a bunch of....
Anyway I am so irritated today. Been working on a press release since last week and today I have been told that it's CANCELLED!! Goodness.. I already highlighted that management should be giving a clear directive but they debate till so long.... Give up!
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Friday the 13th
Been on a roller-coaster of emotions recently, especially today. That mad woman asked me do something really stupid... well, it's been so many stupid things already... Aint I numb?
Well, sometimes it's just not. She asked me to call another agency to postpone something which cannot be postponed unless senior management says so. Gosh, does she think I can perform miracles?
Everyone knows that she's totally stressed out because of the high turnover rate and an impending huge event that needs scrambling but since you have lived to that age, please manage your own stress, emotions like you always tell us too. Unfortunately, you cant.
You mostly scold us till you feel happy, just because you felt embarrassed because of what we did. It's not we did wrong, but... you just dont see it that way and dont know how to handle things when you get questioned.
I really quite had enough.
Well, sometimes it's just not. She asked me to call another agency to postpone something which cannot be postponed unless senior management says so. Gosh, does she think I can perform miracles?
Everyone knows that she's totally stressed out because of the high turnover rate and an impending huge event that needs scrambling but since you have lived to that age, please manage your own stress, emotions like you always tell us too. Unfortunately, you cant.
You mostly scold us till you feel happy, just because you felt embarrassed because of what we did. It's not we did wrong, but... you just dont see it that way and dont know how to handle things when you get questioned.
I really quite had enough.
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Rediscovering blogging
Attended a course on the "7 habits of highly effective people" recently... It's more like a workshop to motivate you and make you realise that the choice is in your hands. You can choose to be happy or focus on negative thoughts and let it dominate your life.
I guess we all have the 7 habits in ourselves but this was a good refresher, reminding me to focus on the important things that matter TO me. Hmm.. I think I came away with my key takeaway as enlightenment. I decided to try the philosophy out.
Immediately I started on re-focusing my priorities in my life in the social, emotional, spiritual and physical aspects. I want to:
Social - Meet up more with friends, family or learn a new skill (Yes, I made enquiries about picking up drumming or improving my guitar at Yamaha Contempo School.. first step out)
Physical - Continue exercising every weekend (Already feeling the benefits of cardio movements; more energetic! Need to make it a habit every weekend)
Spiritual - Read inspirational books, including the Bible and listen to inspirational uplifting music
Emotional - Blog or write a journal (Apparently this can help release stress or balance your emotions, similar to talking to people. But if you cant talk often, you can blog and I have decided to go back to blogging)
In addition, whatever I cannot change, I shall not dwell on it, especially at the workplace. They will reap whatever they sow and I have to make plans for myself. It's been several days and I can see this simple strategy working, I do feel more enlightened and less burdened!
Be happy. Smile!
I guess we all have the 7 habits in ourselves but this was a good refresher, reminding me to focus on the important things that matter TO me. Hmm.. I think I came away with my key takeaway as enlightenment. I decided to try the philosophy out.
Immediately I started on re-focusing my priorities in my life in the social, emotional, spiritual and physical aspects. I want to:
Social - Meet up more with friends, family or learn a new skill (Yes, I made enquiries about picking up drumming or improving my guitar at Yamaha Contempo School.. first step out)
Physical - Continue exercising every weekend (Already feeling the benefits of cardio movements; more energetic! Need to make it a habit every weekend)
Spiritual - Read inspirational books, including the Bible and listen to inspirational uplifting music
Emotional - Blog or write a journal (Apparently this can help release stress or balance your emotions, similar to talking to people. But if you cant talk often, you can blog and I have decided to go back to blogging)
In addition, whatever I cannot change, I shall not dwell on it, especially at the workplace. They will reap whatever they sow and I have to make plans for myself. It's been several days and I can see this simple strategy working, I do feel more enlightened and less burdened!
Be happy. Smile!
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