Job interview with a bank

I think I just failed an interview with ABC bank today. I feel lousy. I couldnt convince the interviewers I wanted the job. I know it, cos when they asked me why the banking industry and why ABC, my prepared answer came out flat. Unconvincing. And I was too reserved, I let the interviewer talk more than me... I just couldn't come out of my inhibitions and shell.

Has it been that long since I last went for an interview? I thought I had prepared relatively well. And I slept real early the night before! Sigh.

I am feeling frustrated, down. Could it be a blessing in disguise? Maybe God is just saying that the job isn't suitable for me after all. Maybe I will find it when I can click with the interviewer. When the "feel-good" feeling comes.

Anyway I had rushed from work to change into a suit in a retail centre toilet before rushing to the bank centre as I was running out of time with a delayed meeting. Had to wait for about 20 minutes and then I saw my reporter friend coming out of the interview room! What a small world. We pretended not to know each other. Then I was half disappointed already as he's a journalist and to go for an interview after him is like... I will just pale in comparison I guess

I feel lost... but I need to change job. Yup, but not I want. :) Sigh... Anyway I am super exhausted after the interview hhahaha...